Food Poisoned

Oh gosh...coming back from penang ... and am food poisoned =,=
i vomit form 7pm until 12 midnight ... and is send to hospital to be hospitalised...
its a really awful experience , it feels like im dying in another sec ,
im glad that i still alive , i love you , Mummy !

My Gang

U said to me this before...sometimes , i really think about it .
I know u`re just kidding , but maybe its true ?
My "Gang" ...
... ,  the only member is ...
.... Me .

Holidays ROCK !

Its holiday now and im enjoying it omg...hahaha...
Today my sister bring me to penang Queensbay to shopping,she bought me 5 shirst and a belt cost ard rm400 and i bought myself some clothes...and i think i overspent ...i used around rm400+ oso...omg...today so happy nia...shopping like no tomorrow...woohoo!!! But regret later =,=
hehehe...
And..hmm...wad i ate today huh...yeah,new york cheese cake...sushi...taiwanase food , donut , sausage and bak ku teh !!! weeehhh...so many things...fat dao siao liao~
Btw im going to stay here until tuesday lol...haih,...a bit sien =p
Well , Holidays Rock !!!

Jia Min`s Big Day - Legalism !

Woohoo ! Jia Min`s birthday !! Well,its actually on 28th Dec but we celebrate it early on 22th as we all will be going home on 23th Dec...Hahaha...actually i already planning this since early november...hahaha...lols , it takes about few weeks going out to buy things and make photo..hmmm...did i tell u what thing i have for her birthday ?...Its a photo frame lol,where some sweet moments lies inside the photo with all of the "happiness" member...well i suppose "HIAO" more suits us...muahaha....
Its so fun today lol, we managed to fool jia min around by sam asking her to write the birthday wished for jing yi where actually its for herself...just to not making her suspect or thinking that we are going to give her a surprice...= ] After thay i said that i wanna have supper later ...well its also just to fool her =p ...and i have to go back to my room to take the present by giving excuse like going to toilet...hahaha...= ]
Hmm...when she saw us coming out and taking the cakes and present , it was like whoaa...so touching and face change lol...muahaha...Hey birthday girl...happy enough? hehehe...
After that,everyone take turns to "suap" jia min with cakes...muahaha,...its like she is going to eat the whole cake as sam,me,shok kee,mun nee ,xue yu and some i think take turn to suap her...lol...hehe~Then we started playing around with the caked when JUNAN put the cream on my face ~!!! WTH lol....im so innocent u know,i din do anything and he started the thingy , then everyone follow him , playing around and chasing around...Well , haha...Mun Nee is the one with the most cream on her face and head...she was so funny lol,...hahaha...kesian thou...
After than ,we dismiss and when we were about to go back to hostel , we managed to capture come pictures in front of the study area ... =p

Last Day of my Nightmare .

Its Last day !!!
Well , i have been sleeping at 2am and wake up at 6am for 2weeks + now...Just to study for the quiz and its like omfg so tiring and sleepy....
I oweyz go to the library at 7.30-10.30pm then go to study area at 1030-12.00pm liddat then go back room to study...its been fun thou but...its really tiring if u practice it for 2weeks + ...
Well,i just glad that tomorrow its my 2nd mid-term`s last day....Its physics thou...am kinda scared actually .
Well , wish me luck tomorrow = ]
Nites all ~ hehehe

Problem

Disappointed . Rame , u successfully make me lose interest in maths . Today`s quiz , no effort at all . Its like the easiest paper in the history of Aimst , probably the easiest among the whole malaysia matriculation programme paper . I have never been like this before : Last time when i sit for the maths paper , I used to be very excited and nervous and all kinda excitement is shown when doing maths exam paper , but now , its like , hmm..just the same as other paper . One word , PROBLEM .

Send me back !

Whats wrong with my face ? Someone told me i got face problem which i dont really want to admit but i know somehow i got that problem . I just tend to lose everything when something happen and what i needed is just a starting conversation then i can become normal again , somehow maybe , i guess ? Why is it this kinda problem always strikes me when near the exam ? And im feeling totally sick of everything now , i just wanna go home .

Hardwork = No result ?

I screw up my bio paper today . Damn it !

Tell me

Whats my problem?

Awkward .

I have got some awkward moments . Guess when .

Learn new things

I learn new things today .
" Life is short , whats the reason not to smile ? "
A brand new year is coming , and all things i shall just put it aside .
Forgive and forget . Awaiting new adventure .
Let the past be history , tomorrow`s a victory~ ^v^
I`m waiting for your blessing next year ~ ^.^

erm,TODAY ?

Something is wrong with me...I feel lost .
Haiyo,everyday going to the lecture hall and tutorial feels something nia ,duno how to say ar...
Just complicated ar...thinking of Avril song~ "Complicated"
"Why do you have to make things so complicated?..." This is to ask myself ~ LOL !
By the way , speaking of next year degree program , i was thinking to have 2 man per room hostel .
Still finding one people to accompany me , lols .
Exam is next week , try to study now .
Jia min is sicks for weeks already , havent recover yet and it just seems to be worser than before .
When term 1 oso liddat..haiya Jia min arrr...take care of urself please !
Long time din come out and have our musics night already ... hmm ~ wondering when is the last time we did that . And my guitar...yeah finally arrive but not a new one,my brother in law `s one ....He said it still can be used and it really still not bad lar...and its CLASSICAL ~ lol
ish..ish..ish... Its been a tired term so far...Nights all ^v^

Sorry , Its my fault .

Im sorry that i broke my promise . I promised u that i wont tell other people but i did that .
Im not purposely go and tell to everyone,just some that when they keep asking only i tell . I know im being an asshole here , seriously am sorry and i feel bad about this . I should not be forgiven . Amen .

Maybe its better this way

Things change , as time pass by . I just have to come to that and accept it .
Maybe changes is what life is . Maybe it is better in this way if u think that .
I will stay away , and find another pathway .
Should I say farewell ?

Thank you

Shardhana : Thank you for your concern , i am so touched . Seriously already crying now .
                   Having someone that actually care for you is the sweetest thing . Trully
                   grateful that I still have you , =]
Jia Minn :    Sure you all are . The emptiness just cant be explain in words , complicated .
                  But i`m sure that when you all are around , i`m happy . Seriously am .

Now , thinking back , I still have you guys backing me up , I should feel happy again . I will , somehow .
The feeling is the product . Let the time be the catalyst . Hopefully i can catch up with the complication .
I am trying , at least .

Today Outing

Today went out with desmond,jake,justin,easter,eileen and sam .
I did not take a single picture there , which is a rare case i assume .
Hard to smile . Feel like i`m an "extra" thing which really bothering me .
Emptiness strikes me again .

Empty

My heart feels empty .
Waiting for someone come into my life and fill it up .
Anyone , just come .
I need you .

Maybe

Why i just cant be fake ? I always show people what i think and what i feel .
Sometimes i feel rugi cos people might think others and do another thing but i just revealed it all .
Somehow maybe hypocritcy is just not my thing .

Hate this .

Dont ever lie to me , i hate liars .
Once you did , i will never forgive you .
I have warned u this . No mercy .

Options

Thinking of finding a new group to join or find some "boy" friends...
Or just stick with who i`m with right now.
But somehow I feel empty inside .

Recently

I am acting weird lately , who noticed ?
Somehow i think that i become "sam pat" in a not good way .

Rainbow after the heavy rain

Jia minn : I`m glad that u found urself . Nice to see u happy again . =]
Shardhana : I`m glad that u move on , at least u try . = ]

Everything will be fine , I believe that .

Me

I scared to be alone , I refuse to be a loner . I hate this .

Haircut

Just had my haircut today , just now .
Its a complete disaster .
Just don`t ask and don`t comment when you see me later .

Miss u

I miss you , seriously , badly , daily , terribly . Justin .
Where have you gone ?
Why won`t you answer me ?
Your silence is slowly killing me ....

In need of "you know what" ~

I wan eat McD,sushi,oyster,Burger King,fish and fries,Starbucks,baskin robin,many many many...

Secret

You distracted me . Maybe you dont even know i exist but yet i still like to stare at you , hoping that you will notice me one day . What`s my problem ?

Urgghh...

I found myself annoying lately . What should i do?

To You,yeah you !!

To you,yeah you ! little miss,its you !!! He is just not that into you, He is a jerk , He is is playing a game call love game. He is not good enough for you. He is bullshitting all times . He is psychologically affecting you . Don`t hope for it, trust me he is "****"... i can`t even find a word to describe him in english ! Imaging that !!!

Now

I feel better now.

今天你好吗、我们总是习惯这样和大家打招呼～可是，今天我好吗？

我关心一天一天长大变老的家人

我关心一起熬夜分享一切的朋友

我关心如果可以最好不要的考试

我关心没有钱也不能没有的假期

担有时…我也希望被关心…

也許,你我都在『偽裝』

明明很想哭，卻還在笑。 明明很在乎，卻裝作無所謂。 明明很想留下，卻堅定的說要離開。 明明很痛苦，卻偏偏說自己很幸福。 明明忘不掉，卻說已經忘了。 明明放不下，卻說他是他，我是我。 明明捨不得，卻說我已經受夠了。 明明說的是違心的假話，卻說那是自己的真心話。 明明眼淚都快溢出眼眶，卻高昂著頭。 明明已經無法挽回，卻依舊執著。 明明知道自己很受傷，卻說你不必覺得欠我的。 明明這樣「偽裝」著很累，卻還得依舊...... 

 為的只是隱藏起自己的脆弱，即使很難過，也會裝的無所謂， 只是不願別人看見自己的傷口，不想讓自己周圍的人但心，不想讓別人同情自己， 只想在心底獨自承受，雖然心疼的難以呼吸，卻笑著告訴所有人「我沒事的！」 , 然後靜下來時，自己便笑話自己，何必把自己偽裝的那麼堅強? 好像自己可以承受所有的苦難，這好累......好累...... 即使是偽裝，即使很累，只為了不讓蓄積於眼底的淚水流下。那是蘊藏在眼底的冰冷，一旦溫熱便會洶湧，沖毀我久築的防堤...... 只為這一個理由，已足夠。

偽裝堅強，只為不讓脆弱有機可乘，只為可以一個人在晚上走夜路也不害怕...... 呵，扯開嘴角的微笑並不是那麼容易。 你堅強的背後會有一個聲音：累不累？可已無路可退。 一個人的夜晚，才會最真實吧？！

有時候，我會累會想停下來，去觀望路邊的風景， 有時候，我會為自己找一個藉口，讓自己停留； , 我想為自己找一個藉口，一個讓自己停下來的藉口…

Today Mirrors Tomorrow

"It sucks,you know.When everything is doing fine then,it all crashes again.And the worst part is,I really don`t want to try and put it back together again,but I have to." by one blogger .

Its Crazy ! Its Fun !!

Wow!!! Deepavali its so crazying !!! Im having so much fun !!!
Went to Vicky house,we talk until 4hrs...then go to kalai`s house and talk for 3hrs !!!
The next day i go out with my dearest fren to penang,eat ,swim,eat play,watch movie shopping!!! so much fun !!! And we played badminton too !!!
Its just so fun to be with friends!! And Im so crazy that i actually let my sister dye my hair !!!

Lol,luckily it turns out to be quite nice the colour,if not,im going to kill her !!! Then kill myself,lol...hahaha !! Going back to aimst is what i dont want the most,how i wish this is just a nightmare,lol !!

Episode 1 : When Chicken Meets other Chicken"s"...

After watching the show that directed by Director Jia min,i have decided that i wanted to start a show too =p
Just that im not as great as Director Jia min,so im just going to publish here 1st =p
Well this show is basically call Episode 1 : When Chicken Meets other Chicken"s"...muahahaha...
Well just start with the one that i met 1st =]
Desmond
Desmond Yong Teik Wei . He is my first friend in aimst actually haha,during the orientation day,i noticed that he is a very quiet person and dont have any friends,so me gatal gatal go kacau him when he is eating alone there and say :"Why u eating alone?"...then we start chatting and im the one asking his phone no. actually muahahaha...We start go to lecture hall together and we actually sms-ed each other when wanna g for lecture! We stick together and later on Justin come into our gang and eileen and easter called us "san jian ke"...lame..hahaha =p
He is a very quiet person but if u know him d,then he will start to joke around .
Justin
Justin Cheong Jia Huai is the 2nd friend i meet in aimst =], i actually know him the 1st time i see him in the 1st day of orientation,but that time i havent talk to him yet...muahaha,cos he also another quiet person...hahaha
After i know him,we start stick together ...haha...and he is the one actually asking us to keep one place for him when we go for lecture =] Still very good with me now thou =p He is quiet if u dont know him that well,but as soon as u know him,he can be a good friend,he is sporting,down to earth,small?,handsome?maybe?,hahaha...
Jia min
Chieng Jia Min is the 3rd person i know in aimst,hard to believe huh,hahaha...
Well,it`s all start in the tutorial room when she is `1st come to the tutorial and sit behind us.
And that time she is sitting alone also...Im the one actually asked her whats your name? nice to meet you and so thick-face to ask for phone number =,= Then after i know Shardhana and Sam,we all start to hang around more often and become a lot closer to each other =]
She is a good listener,good teacher[teach life],sometimes can be funny also .She can play guitar and piano very well,and when i say very well,it`s AWESOME !!! =]
Shardhana Morgan
Shardhana is the 4th person i met which is another AWESOME ! =] I still remember the first time i see this little,tiny,small malay girl and asked for her name and always forget or pronounce wrongly....hahaha...and after that only i found out that she is actually indian =,=lll lame teramat sangat,hahaha...
After i know that she can play guitar and sing very well,we actually make a musics night just for us after that . We are very close frens now,We hang out everytime,basically everyday,every lunch and dinner...haha
She is friendly,she likes to make a lot of frens just like me =],she is small,tiny,little and "round" =],she is talkative in a good way  =],she is funny and she is very helpful,if she dont like a person,she will just show a face,cant help it =p ,she dont like ordinary things,in another word,she likes abnormal or special or unique or duno wad else d..
Sam
Aftr knowing Shardhana,i get to know Sam,hahaha...
She comes from Kelantan and got a bit kelate look...haha..She will ask a lot of question based on studies if she find it confusing or she dont understand it . She will become very geram if sha cannot solve a problem but she is a nice fren thou,she is a good listener as well just that if u are not close with her,she wont talk a lot .
She tend to lose her temper easily if something happens to be not right . But thats just basically her,we know her very well,haha,after a while she will be ok again =] She is funny sometime =] and she can sing damn nice !!! Her voice it`s like gifted to sing !!! Simply amazed of that =]
Suba
After knowing Shardhana and Sam i get to know Suba =]
They all stick together when I first met them...
Suba is so fantastic that in the first time when i see her i already in love with her humour !
She can be so funny that I will laugh like no people are around and tends to joke around crazily like no tomorrow !!! Hahaha...We are close frens now and i hope we all will always be =]
Jake
Jake i think its the last person i know? Lols, I know him when I was in the computer lab waiting to fill in the insurance thingy and he is just sitting besides me and chong also there. I was talking tamil with an indian girl there and in the halfway i forget already how we started conversation,hahaha...
we know each other that time,after that,i introduced Desmond and Justin to Jake and i think that,that time Jake already know Desmond,hahaha...At first Jake wasnt really close with us,but now he is apart of us,and very close to us =] We are almost everyday having breakfast,lunch and dinner together...

This is basically how i know u all,my best friends all =]...
I hope that our friendship will last forever =]...
I LOVE you guys !!! You all ROCK !!!!


To be continue...........

It`s Fun?

Today its kinda fun actually,yeah i play badminton for the 3rd continuos day and yet its full of excitement.
The members of today badminton team is me of cos,shardhana[din play badminton but instead go for jogging],jia min,jing yi,desmond,liang and Lau Mun Yee`s gang . Today we play again with the EXPERT TEAM and the score its not that awful compared to yesterday mainly because they hold back a lot...=p
But yet its still very enjoyable.And we played with Lau Mun Yee too...She is really good.
At night , we have musics night [kononnya] wanna celebrate desmond`s birthday . Actually we wanted to celebrate it from last sunday but it seems desmond come back late and yesterday the convenient shop was closed so i planned to do it today,and we all agreed =] It seems desmond duno anything about it,haha...and thats what i think is fun about,what for doing it on sunday since he already knew that we will celebrate it,rather we celebrate it today,and its full of surprices...muahahaha...We play and eat cakes and they were playing guitars and keyboard and singing...It`s an enjoyable day thou until i found out that im kinda lost cos duno how to play guitar,keyboard and canot sing well...Duno anything make a person feels like he is nothing...lol,not blaming la,basically its just nothing to do,well i did go back early without tell everyone except Sam cos no one will notice oso...Well the nice day ends here =]   

1st Day

Its the 1st day of Term 2 !!!!!
Well,nothing special today actually,its all start with a disappoint"ion" on the lecturer-changing thing...
Lol,i start to talk back like normal and try my hardest to do that,its just seems like i can talk to everyone like normal except "dia" tapi i try oso...just that canot masuk into the conversation ... =,=
Then hor Sam duno how suddenly got "God-like" sense can sense me and ask the ppl around and when i noticed it,i wanted to shout out loud  "WTF"???...
Lol,nothing much actually,i talk craps most of it today...kinda foolish =p...
Well,just bear with me,it`s the 1st day ma...okok,only once lo :]
Hmmm,den wad else har...erm,yeah,we went to play badminton today !!! With beloved gang [Shardhana,Jia minn,Jing Yi and Sam] Wei Khai and twins oso come along,woo~ so many ppl sia...and its raining lol....imagine how badly we wanted to play badminton~ hahaha!!...
i went to play squash at first cos we short of rachet...then only i realised that its too tiring to play squash alone =,= after that we play badminton and i played with Qiu Ching...and another Expert Team !!! They are just AWESOME,they played it so well that i actually feel a bit ashame of myself ~,~
After that we go for a short ping pong session...Basically everyone`s having their 1st time playing ping ping [LOL] ! Overall we played for like 2hrs-2hrs+30min...
Its too tiring for me cos i just played 3 hrs yesterday and today 2hrs more then 2moro 2hrs+ more oso...im going to die soon X_X
At night we go and have our musics night which seems a bit odd from normal o.O cos we usually do it in weekends~
We [ Me,Jia min,Shardhana,Sam,Desmond,Jake,Eileen and Easter ] play and play and sing and sing and laugh and laugh and talk and talk...for like 1hr+30min ~
That`s basically wad happen today...1st day or Term 2, end with full stop in my  blog =]
TIRED !!!!! .

Move on

The Angela is very famous liao now...

"Without Tasting the Worst situation,No one can Taste the Best things of Life... Dare to Face anything in Your Mysterious Life!"

"Drop The Idea Of Becoming Someone,Because You Are Already A Masterpiece. You Cannot Be Improved.You Have Only To Come To It, To Know It, To Realize It..."

I just simply love the way she said,its just simply AWESOME !!!
I have been too emo last few weeks...i think its because when "that" thing happen,i start to lose confident and when "that" happen again...i starts to think a lot...its been like hell last month..
I dont wanna think about it anymore,simply like giving up,haha...Yes,GIVE UP !
Well,i pretty agree with that quote from desmond "used to not used to" is it the right way to translate it?
haha...
Well,it`s going to be alright,dont think too much :)
Right now,i just want to finish my foundation year,hopefully can go through this year :)
And get rid of being emo and sensitive...
God bless me !

Hmm..

Wow...everyone is updating their blog very often now...
Haha...but i duno what to update mine...~.~

Term 2

3 more days to start term 2...
sedikit nervous pula...haha

Sushi

Went to Sushi King with kayson,vivien and shi yin..

Sedapnyerr....=p

Huh?

Think,thought,thinking...
Am thinking too much lately...

Miss u....

Waaa...its only been 3 days ...and i already miss u guys T_T
justin,jia min,shardhana,jing yi,suba,priya....
Cant wait for outing,movie,steamboat,badminton....:p
Hehehe...

Exam day 4

Well today`s paper is Maths which is the most confident subject of mine as usual,but then am worried about Physics paper 2moro.Its always too much pressure for an "experienced" one as everyone is expecting a lot from you.I noticed that directly or indirectly.Well,what is more,life maybe is like that,im not so sure cos im still young :p ~.~ Still have a long way to go =p
Let us dont think about yesterday,dont worry about 2moro,just do our best to go through today ! ^v^

Birthday

Birthday,yesterday,today,anyday....
Its just a day.It used to be just a day...till today i found out that birthday its so...warm
I have a lot of friends stand by me,greets me and especially close friend like jia min,shardhana,sam and etc.
Well,theeba makes the most fun,brighten up my sad day,thx teeba :)
How i wish justin was here,and suba,priya~
It is my first birthday in aimst and outside my house.Its full of wishes,come from friends.
Thx shardhana for the cute drawing,i love it so much :)
This year is the year that i received most birthday wishes...got almost 90+ wishes...from sms to call,from facebook to real meeting wishes...im so happy :)
With that,im officially 1 year older :(

Outing :)

"Leong,jing yi ask you wanna go out eat outside or not coz she wanna eat outside" jia min sms-ed me suddenly...
eat OUTSIDE? Wow...it sounds.... FUN !
haha....we go out with justin [me,justin,jia min and jing yi]~ to village mall so call "times square" in Sungai Petani...
This is jing yi and jia min...:)

and this is our most handsome,cute,nice,kind,friendly(maybe),cool,.....justin "timberlake" !

Wee~ ...applause~
They all bullying me on the way going there...especially jing yi and jia min >,<
eVen justin oso join into their groups and playing ard =,='''
I cant show too much of their photo here cos they have my darn cute PICTURE"S" !!
Of coz u will not see me cos im the only one who took the pictures of everyone :p
this is the scene when we start our "journey" to "times square"...

On the way,there was a short period of traffic jam and i manage to get this ^^

Well,it took us some time to get there...and we spent ard half hours finding a shop to eat =,=
"no STEAMBOAT" dats why jing yee so disappointed~ and at last we end up going into a chinese restraurant eat "tian ji" and "man yu".... we were eating...n chatting...

Jia min stop eating the "man yu" cos i ter"say" it taste like snakes =3=...i feel so paiseh lol~

After the "nutricious" dinner...we went to Village mall to look for any nice movie to watch but sadly... its all starting ard 9-10pm~ [too late for us]

When justin is out of guard....i manage to get this :)

After that,we went to TESCO nearby to buy some stuff~

We met shardhana there !!! its a most unexpected thing to happen...and im so surpriced !!!
haha,nice to see shardhana there and its my first time seeing her dad and her mom and her lil bro...
her mom look so friendly and gentle...her dad look so warm and her lil bro voice is simply fantastic !!!
and justin said shardhana`s mom is just as "tall" as her~ lol...
but somehow i get to feel some sort of uneasy aura...i know wads wrong...i just hope it will end up happily...
Life is short after all...why should we fight for a small lil thing since we still have a long way to go?
Well after that jia min and jing yi and shardhana continue buying things while me and justin went to buy kfc...
During the long queer,we talk about our life in AIMST...he is not happy but not sad...its jus nothing worth to be happy for here...i wanted him to feel happy...but i duno how...cos i oso not happy here...but then wad to do...i hope justin will somehow find his life here is meaningful,at least for me...he is indeed a very good friend of mine...i will not let the precious "friendship" go away....its a strange and mixed feeling...i treat every friends very importantly...everyone is so important that i will easily collapse if anything happen between us or them...even is they are having some problems...i still feel the sadness...
I just hope everyone can appreaciate their friends and anyone dat they care for...
Why things have to become like this? What is Friend all about? Define friendship...
Well,life is not all about success after all,happiness is wad it matters,at least dats wad i think...

We Study,We Play,We Chase,We Run,We HaV Fun !

Justin HOUSE !!
Wow...
After the "omg" speaking test,me n justin walk back his house...it took us bout 20-30mins..
on the way,we walk,we talk n we STALK !! Stalk a pretty gal..wiuwit~[jia min`s line] :p
After we reached,we talked n chat like "auntie"...hehe...
We were studying biology ...Q&A~

All of sudden~,justin said : omg,is dat a frog ??
omg,it is a frog !!! we were busy chasing the frog out of the house..
den cockroach also come =,=...haha,den only i know justin scared of cockroach !!!
muahahaha...i catched the cockroach and playing it with justin...he scared until went to hide in his room...:)
we play like crazy ppl...haha...
i  really have a nice moment there....
Wad really matter is...we had fun ^^
<3