What i can say

What happens, really, when you hit rock bottom? I guess all i can say is that the best thing about being at the bottom is that the only other way is to go is up.

So here it is. I wont say i know how you feel, but i will tell you how i felt. I felt like disappearing. I felt so fudging stupid. I wanted to hit myself real hard on the head. To sum it up, i wanted to die. I felt like i was dying inside, and im not exaggerating. That period of time is now a faded memory, but if i dig deep down and remember every detail, it still hurts a little.

But listen. Sometimes shit happens, and you make the wrong choices, or you do the wrong things, or you dont do the things that you are supposed to do, and then things wind up being fcked up beyond comparison, and you have this impulse to knock your head against the wall repeatedly because you could have done this differently, and then things would have been different -- better maybe. But there is something to learn in everything that happens, no matter how minute or insignificant these things may seem .

Well , maybe it is okay to have screwed up. Because that is what people do, and i know that is no excuse, but that really doesnt matter as much as how they react to it, and how they fix it whilst moving on. Life was never meant to be easy, and if it was, then we'll never learn anything, and we'll never grow.

So let go is what i decided to do and i did and am still trying now . There's nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be. It rings so true and fits so right. The past may have been great, it may have sucked, but it doesnt matter, because you guys are here now, and everything must have fallen into place perfectly.

So , keep bouncing back khai leong !