Owowh,..

Foundation life in Aimst ended...and now at home so boring....wakaka...Somehow wish that the holidays end faster so that can go back to aimst and meet my friends...Kinda miss Jia min , Justin , Fiona ,Travis , Tun Ru them...hmm...hope they can make it back to aimst and me too >,<...god bless me...

Heartache

Today is such a heartache day for me ...I feel so sad , my heart is like taring apart...my soul...have gone missing somewhere else far enough that i couldnt find it...It feels so hurt...Well..maybe just that its my problem that i like to feel a lot and think a lot ...Today...its maths paper...but is not the main reason for me to feel down the drain ? down the hell for me perhaps...When i come out of the exam hall...i saw panguin come and talk to me something something and i remember i asked him to wait for me , just like not even 5min...But I noticed that they already went off without me and they saw me just behind of them but they never wait...I still remember when I sit for my english paper and i waited tun ru come out for like 30mins...and just now when they all wanan come down from the library , I waited them and go to the exam hall together...Maybe it just me ...my problem ? But when I come to think about it...it just came through my mind that isit I doesnt even worth for waiting ?...I feel pathetic...Im just a human thou...i need care too...Im feeling real sick now and very hard to breath ...Im gasping for air now.

Wei Yin`s post

OMG ! i love Wei Yin`s post again !!! Its just feel so much when i read here...

The people you love the most, hurt you the most, because you allowed them to get so close to you and to have that power over your heart and emotions.

Thinking that the word love shouldn’t be tossed around so often.There is no love in betrayal, just lust and enjoyment of companionship, don’t get it confused.The hardest part is taking the first steps of that first mile, because right now, all we want to do after all those pain is never looking back.

i dont wnat to worry anything besides happiness .

Today

I feel great today....simply because all my dearest darlings are there and so good to me...im seriously actually eventually touched and feel sweet~ =p
Hmm...its all started with yesterday bltch-gathering-beer-session with all 2 of my dearest bltches , jia minn the Lushan blcth and fiona the Luhai bltch...we were drinking sandy and tiger beer and talking nonsense and obscene words...talking happily and saying that tomorrow is going to talk only good things,not even one word bad...and who ever said bad word , lose...lols.
Well , it went ok today just that after lecture , dat Lushan bltch duno whats wrong with her...today just so wrong for her...and somehow i feel the atmosphere...which i not reli like it...cause i want to be optimistic...i dowan feel sad...Hmm...done with that...she managed to get a bit better after tutorial...maybe just a little...
And what Im happy is today i went to my beloved darling ~ Tun Ru there and watched movie with Junan and Chong Hon...We sleep together and play molesting all around...lols,sounds so obscene...lol...and Tun Ru actually promised me that he will follow me to the library to study with me from tomorrow onwards...im so darn happy hearing that...hehe...glad la at last he want to study liao rather that everyday , every minutes dota...=,=...Hmm...and after that when I go to library time , I actually by and chance of fate or destiny ter-saw Justin and Desmond and we walk together to library...Although it was only a really short way...but yet I setill feel extremely happy bout it cause Justin talk to me very happily and I feel on top of the world and actually do feel a bit sweet and happy cause already long time didnt talk to him...and what make me feel more happy and over the top is that Jia Minn actually tell me that she saw Justin walk more towards me when we were talking on our way to library just now....he seems very excited and happy...Im glad to hear that and just feel soo soo so damn it happy....=)
Hmmm...I just never been so happy when i come to aimst...the happy days can count bare hand...Lols...and another good news is im going to play badminton tomorrow ...yeah !!!yeeha...=p but then another news is im going to recheck my physics result of term 2 which I seriously feel that I did extremely well this time and my expectation was will get 90+....but instead i got 76...its rather disappointing and money wasting...haihs...nvm ...I just feel tak puas hati...i dont know why...I just feel that I need to recheck...I will follow my instinct...Hmm...its really late noght already...im going to sleep now...Hmm...see ya guys...good night and have a good night sleep...sleep tight tight and sWeet dreamZ alll.....Love ya`ll .

Recently

I dont have mood to write this now but its has been quite a long time already since i wrote my last post .
Hmm...Well , life in aimst just get more busy and hectic when assignments are floating all over ... and im still relaxing my term 3 . Whats worst is i cant wait to know my term 2 result and its been like century to wait for the notice . Its kinda shit this week and last week...and i guess the following week too...And u know what ? I spent too much on term 3 until I cant even count how much i spent . I go to my school`s ATM machine like going to lecture hall...too often...I think i alreay spent RM 600 + or even more ...I had supper very often and go out very often ths term , I scared that I dont have enough money to buy my dream phone already...sobbie~ Well , the desmond thingy I already like dont wanna care much and let it flow anyway it likes...Its like I dont have so much time to take care of those kidda silly things as im having my term 3 exam coming soon , and my quiz is just around the corner...and guess what ? I havent do any revision on any subject yet...even the most confident subjects , Maths ...i also dont think I can handle it very well this term ... Too many doubt and problem i face , including the "you-best-friend" thinggy issue , too many which trigger my recent mood swing so often ...Well, good news is im going home this weekend , for the first time in my term 3 , yeay !!! So excited about it although its only practically 2 days but still I will enjoy it , And guess what , my good sister is going to bring me out for a treat , nice-expensive-delicious-will-be treat . ^^ Hehe....not bad lar...still cares bout me ...lol...Hmmm...I really dont know what to say anymore , hmm...well , I like Tun Ru , Penguin , Junan , Justin and Tharsheeka... hehe...thats the ending...And the prince and the princess live happily ever after . ^^

Lonely

Duno why , something cross my mind , that i feel so lonely . Yeah , I do admit that i have a lot of friends , very nice friends indeed in aimst but somehow , I feel like I dont have a true friend , erm , do you get what i mean or not ? ...Hmmm...What I mean is , I need a very good friend like can share secrets , care each other a lot , I mean...A LOT...,always be there when I was down , always tell me if he is having any problem...I just...need one , ONE...only one...is that too much to ask for ?

Better

Things actually start to get better now...and im glad that im not having any problem...yet ?
But still , i think its a good thing , and my problem with desmond is getting better now i guess? Since when im talking to him , he got responce and i found a secret...Actually among jake and desmond and justin all...i like justin the most . Duno why , i feel like ... duno how to say , just like the way he is , just like to be around with him , when he come and call me or talk to me or play with me , I feel extremely happy , over the top , happy for no reason , all sad things just go away...like instantly . Desmond , I think we can be friend like normal back but still will have some small thingy within me , that will try to stay away from him , maybe because I dont want to get hurt anymore? Or I just lost my faith on people , I can hardly trust people already ... Well , its a way to protect ourselves also , its not wrong either i guess ? Hmm...that all for today ? Hope tomorrow is better than today =) Have a good night sleep , people .