Seriouly wad is on your mind actually ? Few days before you come and aproach me and i thought hmm,yeah finally we are going to get back to be friends after a long period that u mad of me...but what is this? This few days i tried my best to look at you and talks to you...tried my best effort but you ? Actually , a lot of things change since we last talk ...whe is it actually? if im not mistaken,it should be last year`s November...
Now,i noticed that you changed a lot...hang with friends more often and doesnt get angry so easily and actually know how to console and talk to people...which makes me start to think that why isit last time u never wanted to tell me what you feel...and those warm and caring words i never heard you talk to me ever Ever before...
So what la now,i prefer you never wanted to see me or talk to me , it would make me feel better , cos i already immune to it if you want to ignore me cos i oso doing the same after that hell period when i was abandon , i was left alone,eating brwakfast alone,walk to lecture hall alone,go to tutorial alone,go to library alone,sitting alone,eating lunch and dinner alone,never go out,talk to nobody but myself very often...im already used to ignore you...why at this most important period...term 3 , you chose to give me a fake hope ?
Now, im shaken again , im thinking a lot more than ever , im suffering , i cannot study , cannot do homework , it distratcs me , its burden , my small little tiny broken-more-than-once heart , canot take anymore of it already , please , my Lord...help me , let me go through this , please give me strength , i need you ... please be by my side ...
I am scared , left alone in an empty dark chamber , hugging my pillow...tearing...as always, praying and hoping that there will be a warm hand reach upon me , I dont wish to be saved , but at least , let me know that im not alone....at least there is still someone out there cares...
