I am back

Good day people!

Well, clearly, it appears that my has gone into abandonment, but i'm not giving up yet! I refuse to remove despite this site having gone un-updated for months, because i know that i still have way to much to learn, and i want to share all of this with you guys. I love this blog, and am thankful for the existence of a space for me to express and expand the best of myself.

Well, yeah, i've been going through some miserable periods and even been stricken with negativity. Well, i guess i just seem to be unable to grasp that invigorating sense of energy. It's gone ... somewhere, and this has been preventing me from signing into this account and updating for, like a year? 

But, here it is. I am back ! Be ready ! Haha =P

Yo !

It has been a long time since my last post here. Guess I`ll need to visit back this place yeah~ haha =P

Today

Today, in complete innocence, I pulled on my one and only Beatles tee and walked out of my home, mind and spirit still very much asleep. I got a well-timed awakening.

Call it an epiphany if you will, but I've been going through some down times recently, and very much needed some Awesome reaffirming in myself. Maybe it was the caffeine rush that helped boost this, but I am truly grateful to say that right now, I embody the spirit of Living In Every Now Moment.

This equates to what you have now, what you have been going through recently, all your rough patches, everything that didn't work out, all that you want, all that you cannot get... it all constitutes your now moment, and it is all perfect.

Because you're here now, and everything must have fallen into place perfectly. =)

Everything is going to be all right

One week ago, the core on which i had placed of all my dreams came apart at the seams, and it was, by far, the worst emotion i have ever had to experience. But within hours i was healing, and within days i had bounced back. A little deflated yes, but bounce back i did.

The reality of everything came tumbling down, and as with some people who are forced to be realistic, i so very nearly lost hope and gave up. I was on the edge, i was.

But hope, you see, is such an amazing thing. And so impossibly lucky am i, that in this exact Now moment, i have Hope.

First i must clarify that it is important to know when to let go, but it is even more important to know when to hold on, and when to not give up. Perhaps by the definitions of other people i am being "foolish", but i follow my heart, and i cannot deny that my heart is foolish :)

The past few days of mine have been absolutely swamped by sorry-cant-tell-u matter, that i am probably this close to losing it. But then some small things happened and it brings me back to speed, reminding me to breathe, and to relax, and that everything is going to be all right.

And even without this Hope, everything will be fine. Because on this journey that we're all in together, if it isn't fine, then it isn't over. So throw a handstand. Run around naked. Have faith because it's never too late. Absolutely.

Best day in my degree life =)

I feel so happy right now. It's amazing. I feel like giggling, or maybe laughing out so loud that i'd give rise to shouts of “shut up!” from my roommates. I want to jump, i want to dance, i want to hug people. I want you to know that you're such a lovely being, and that you're perfectly amazing as you are right now, with all your flaws. It doesn't matter if something happened to make you think that you're perhaps not thin enough, not fat enough, not tall enough, not smart enough, not funny enough, not happy enough, not interesting enough, not kind enough, not WHATEVER enough. Don't listen to yourself, because YOU ARE AMAZING. Seriously, i`m feeling like on top of the world now. Somebody slaps me please. =D

I never felt so happy before after entering degree life. I feel so blessed. I am happy. =DDD I hope that everything will go right and you are what I need for the following 4 years. I care about you. Yes, I can! I believe that I can treasure this. I won`t let it slip off again this time. "Believe in yourself, because you are absolutely amazing." 

Although the past has not been too convincing, but chill! Just let go. Zoom OUT. Do you see now, all the insecurities and fears and sadness and pain you are withholding? It's not gold, so why are you keeping that? Let it go and accept the changes. Adapt to it and who knows something greater is waiting ahead? ^^ Gingerly, take one step out of that circle of negative energy, and free yourself. Live your life to the max. Forget and forgive. Believe in yourself, it`s never been this great. Appreciate this moment. The sky is yours. The earth is yours. Your life is yours.

Busy days

New Uni life after entering degree programme,
it has been so busy and hectic.

Studies.

Outings.

Lectures.

And I am feeling like missing something in my life.

I just dont know what it is.

I just sort of feel empty in me.

Yes. The emptiness strikes me again.

My recent sleepless nights.

Maybe its just in my dreams or whatsoever.

Idk.

My feelings.

Its hard to be described.

Its just too confusing.

I had been trying my best to show my smile everytime.

Even though I am not feeling good deep in me

Still I'll have smile it out.

Having problems in every way.

From love to studies.

I just dont know the way to face it.

That's why I managed everything of my own badly.

Maybe I should just stop doing so much.

Stop thinking too much.

Just let it be.

I had been saying that since last year foundation.

Am I really that pathetic? 

I'll be having a steamboat as a farewell dinner for Amber, 

a friend of mine tonight.

I'll be happy I told myself.

I'll try.

Leave everything to the God.

I did my best and God will do the rest for me. =)

And for a little bonus, I know a guy from last year april batch foundation.

I like him a lot =D

I hope that we can be new best friend forever.

I am making my move, 

hopefully, I will find a true friend at last. 

Cheers !!! Hehe...

Well, I hope myself will get through all of these tough times and pray for good time ahead.

God bless me. May the spirits be with me ! XD

Memories

When people asked you to smile, ask yourself.

Are you really smiling from your bottom heart ?

Everything's lost except;

the beauty scenes are still wandering in my mind.

I dreamed I hoped.

But, it just could not make it rights.

Oh dear, it`s memories, memories, memories.
How I wish, those moments would be back to me.